I am depressed. I don't know why. As I mentioned in my last blog, I am suffering no personal trauma, no depressing breakups or abusive relationships, neither do I have any physical issues that demand depression. It looks like I am depressed for apparently no reason. Who am I kidding, that is the way I always have been. Now, I don't know about you people. Do you get depressed like that? I hope not, it sucks.
So, what do I feel? I feel empty, shallow, pointless, purposeless, obsolete, and what not. I feel as my life has stopped moving forward. I am getting older alright, nothing else seems to be happening. What else should happen? I don't know, but something should, right? What do you think?
No, I am not a person who is searching for the meaning of life. In fact I believe there is no more meaning that what is happening in and around our life. But, the thing is, nothing is happening. Like Alfred says to Bruce Wayne in The Dark Knight Rises, it seems I am not living but waiting, hoping that something will happen. I am getting sick and tired of this waiting. Ha, now the question comes, why don't I do something about it! Well, I don't know what to do. I am doing all the stuff I am supposed to do but I am not getting what I am looking for from any of those. Well, to make matters worse, I am not yet clear what I am looking for.
Damn it! Now I am getting depressed trying to find the cause of my depression! Let me leave it and just be depressed for the heck of it!!!
So, what do I feel? I feel empty, shallow, pointless, purposeless, obsolete, and what not. I feel as my life has stopped moving forward. I am getting older alright, nothing else seems to be happening. What else should happen? I don't know, but something should, right? What do you think?
No, I am not a person who is searching for the meaning of life. In fact I believe there is no more meaning that what is happening in and around our life. But, the thing is, nothing is happening. Like Alfred says to Bruce Wayne in The Dark Knight Rises, it seems I am not living but waiting, hoping that something will happen. I am getting sick and tired of this waiting. Ha, now the question comes, why don't I do something about it! Well, I don't know what to do. I am doing all the stuff I am supposed to do but I am not getting what I am looking for from any of those. Well, to make matters worse, I am not yet clear what I am looking for.
Damn it! Now I am getting depressed trying to find the cause of my depression! Let me leave it and just be depressed for the heck of it!!!
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